A lesson in grace...

I frequently catch myself staring at my infant son in awe.  In awe of the miraculous creation of life.  In awe that I was chosen to be his mother.  And then I wonder, why was I chosen?  What did I ever do to deserve such a wonderful blessing?  There are so many that, in my worldly view, are more deserving.  There are so many that have an insatiable desire to be a mother, yet are not.  Why me?  Why was I so blessed?  It's a lot like survivor's remorse.  I am so thankful and grateful for my son, but I grieve with those that cannot have or have lost children as I continue to question why these struggles did not happen to me.

But then God's voice speaks to me.  He says that I have done absolutely nothing to deserve my wonderful family.  It is out of His perfect love that He chose to give to me what I do not deserve.  I will turn this blessing back to praise all of my life.  Thank you, Jesus!

This is my living lesson in grace.